Today has been really hard. Well, to be honest it all started last night. I have felt this deep feeling of spiritual attack. It all started with thoughts of doubt....I can't do this anymore, I am not good enough to do this, shannon what you are leading people to is not making a difference. So, I pushed through last night and finished my message and then just went to bed.
I guess I just thought I would get up and it would all be ok. I felt this morning that I had a target on my back. Every thing did, every where I went there was this voice of deception speaking to me. I felt that I was short with people today. And if you are reading this and I was to you "I am so sorry." I was distracted and didn't see it in the moment. I had lunch with a great friend and then come home to my wonderful family. After getting home I realized that I have been under spiritual attach. I have a strong personality but for some reason I have felt defeated today. So, what to do what to do...
I am confessing right now that the power of God lives in me and I will fight back. God has called me to do what I do. I am called to teach the word under the authority of God. I am called to love people, and to listen to them when they need to talk. I am called to live in VICTORY! I am fighting back. Satan I am done giving into your voice of lies...I am alive and living for the Cross of Christ.
May we never forget "greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world."
PS It may be time for me to take some extreme measures in my life for a season.